June 8th, 2006

Things could definitely be worse though (if that's possible). I've had some very nice people "propping me up" with their support. I've been getting calls and emails from people I haven't heard from in months and/or years, as well as emails and donations from fellow MVPs. I can't begin to tell you how much this means to me.

Even though each email or call I get causes me to shed more tears, I can't imagine where I'd be or what I'd do without the kind words and actions of everyone out there who has given me support through this, the worst nightmare I never imagined. As mentioned several times now, I was supposed to go first! I just knew it would be that way, so I never gave her passing much thought.... other than during her surgery a couple of years back, of course.

While I'm trying to make sure I'm always around people, and trying to make sure I actually talk to these people, so they know I appreciate their company, I've never been so utterly alone in all of my life. :-(