June-2-2006

She was amazing.,,, and I STILL CAN'T BELIEVE I'M REFERRING TO HER IN 'PAST TENSE'!!!

I'm sure that, soon, most people reading this will assume that I must be exaggerating about how good she was to me and how good we were together. I assure you that, if anything, I'm holding back. Once again (for now), I have to say "She was amazing".

Slippers when I got home? Give me a break. Most of the time, whenever she stayed home or beat me home, she'd have my pajamas or sweatpants, a warm pair of socks and my slippers ready. Then, she'd insist on taking off my work clothes for me and "dressing me for bed"... again, nothing sexual. Only the purest of intentions based on true love. Don't get me wrong, we had a great "adult" life <g> but the relationship was not based on that, at all.

If anything, I'd have to say our relationship was based on trust. Next, I'd say, the reason we got along so well was that neither of us were selfish, especially her. I've mentioned my 'lust for computer/guitar toys' before. I tended to place the priority of those hobbies above any home improvements. I'd be gazing into a PC or Music catalog and she'd look at me with a cocky smile on her face and say "Why don't you look at this Home Depot sales catalog instead?" :-(

Even so, when I really, really wanted something, she'd make sure to get it into the budget. Did I mention she did bills too? She performed magical tricks, it seems. I never could figure out where all the money we were spending was coming from (no credit card bills either!). Knowing her, she probably made a few calls to creditors, talked their ears off, got the names and birthdays of all of their children, and just arranged "something".

She had her hobbies... I've mentioned the "toys" I used to get for her... one of them turned out to be a great hobby for her. While recovering from her first surgery, I bought her puzzles, coloring books, cross-word puzzle books, 'Teeny Bopper Class' bead making kits and a 'Teeny Bopper Class' jewelry making kit.... in other words, anything I could think of to take her mind off of her pain and at least let time pass by while recovering. Well... she loved making jewelry. She really wanted to start her own hand made jewelry business. I was to put pictures here on my site. Problem was, she was far too busy making jewelry for friends, family, friends of family, etc, to think about selling any. Right now, I have enough jewelry supplies to probably make 100 necklaces, 500 pairs of ear-rings, etc, etc.... she went a bit overboard with the supplies <g> Still, one guitar costs more than all of her hobby supplies put together (at least, I think so ;-)

We were supposed to go to Santa Barbara last weekend (Memorial Day Weekend). Of course, that never happened. All that happened is that I lost a few more pints of liquid from the leak in my eyes. This weekend's pretty much the same. I just received her death certificate. Tell me if you've ever, in your life, cried in your sleep. Now, tell me, did you wake up with a soggy pillow, still crying? Sometimes, life just doesn't seem to make sense.
I'm not normally a "horoscope fan" but found this next paragraph, from MSN horoscopes, to be very interesting and quite accurate.

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Pisces (me) & Cancer (her)
When these two Water signs flow together, the Moon soon locks into Neptune's orbit. Cancer and Pisces intuitively understand each other; they handle each other's sensitivity with respect, care, and gentleness. Their personalities are likely to merge. In physical love, they give of their souls for mutual delight. Loathing power struggles, they silently respect each other's solitude, and barely need to speak aloud. Pragmatic Cancer can relieve dreamy Pisces of life's daily tasks. If the latter is willing to settle down, total harmony is in store for them.
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That summed it up nicely. Total harmony.... at least, most of the time. No two people can live in total harmony without, at least, a little friction once in a while. I've mentioned this before but... well... you know... spinning head and all. Anyway, our son was talking to a friend on the phone while we were having an argument over.... who knows what. Anyway, our son says "Can I call you back in a few minutes? My parents are having their 'Bi-Annual' argument.".. Bi-Annual is about right. Every two years or so, we'd have an argument. I can only remember sketchy details about exactly two of those arguments... and that's only because they were both associated with jealous 3rd parties doing everything they could to try and pry us apart. I'll probably post details later.